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All I want is to be who I want to be
To breathe the air that gasp mi free
To live the dreams my mind conceived
To see the world in love and peace

Let us not take love for granted
For many awaits the touch for hopes and inspirations
Dream. Dare . Do
Let the sun burns through the horizon and the stars to sparkle
Face each day with a smle for others
Never let yesterday's disappointment overshadow tomorrow's dreams....

*-=__It is not about loving a perfect person...
...but to love an imperfect person perfectly __=-*

***__________. dreams of the sparkled stars____::***

::_memories unforgottened_::
June 2004
July 2004
August 2004
September 2004
November 2004
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
October 2005
February 2006
March 2006
November 2006
December 2006
December 2007
May 2008

Monday, October 17, 2005

+ -= r e b i r t h =-+

+ -= R e b i r t h =-+

Its really since stone ages ago that i last did anything about my blog. Now..its up and going again!!! Yeah~!Finally...Haix...I really tink im crazi....i actually spent time doing up my blog skin and typing blog now?!? like now?!? 5am in the morning with sch at 8am later? When everyone's mugging for exam and im supposed to mug too? Hiax...and when i've got so mani more other things waiting for mi to settle??? Y did i actually have time to do all these crap?!!! Well, I guess i gave up on pioritising for this once to do something really for myself and something i realli feel like doing. Im quite deprived from personal time for tooo long...In short...i tink im going crazi~ blarz~

Kaez.....for the soooo long that i've been missing from my bloggies....too many things happened in my life. So many that i dun tink i want to bother go and remember and account for them one by one again...Everything juz happened so fast and so sudden that they seemed to be juz passing winds of my life....Haix...Shall juz let everything remain in my memories.....

While doing up my blog, and when im doing up the links to my friends, I realised that I've been missing on my friends for very long. I haven been making the effort to go and find out how's everyone doing and even to keep in contact with them. I miss everyone. I miss all my dearies in St'nicks, jianing, zhiqi, daryl, shin,raf,van, qin,sue, pink etc etc etc...i miss all my times in 4Grace....and also all the SNGYM ppl... and all the training days and Huang... I miss all the dudes in CJC for first 3 months. All those craps and fun we had...I miss all my volunteering friends...Becky my ultimate darling, gary, kevin, junwen, jason so many so many....ANd of cos ....those peeps in NYJC, Ah poh, cline, ah ru, shyuanie, joan, the smart but crap guys of S3E...and definately i miss my 26th council......everyone.....my dear Aesthec memebers,cheryl, xinhui, chieh,fish, ping ping, feli, febri, rayze, kok, angel,jayne, bird, jasmine-.l, andre....everyone who have all been all so dear to me... Even for the very short time i spent in NYP...I miss all my friends in MS0502, mich dear, clor, jace, yuran, all the girls and guys that were like little bros and sis to me but definately so fun to be with....I miss everyone!!!

Last but not least, I really miss one person...somewan that im starting to wonder if i've lost tis friendship. We used to spend almost everyday together, spending every little thing we know and sharing everything we could....now, there seemed to be this unknown boundary between us. I realli miss shawn. Realli...I dunno what went wrong, haf I done anything wrong or was there juz something wrong tat resulted in the distances between us. I wish i noe...Im typing tis veri bluntly cos i dun tink she will ever read this aniwae...somehow things juz changed so suddenly and without me knowing y...im realli hurt by it...(i feel like crying...). I admit im veri much affected by her change in attitude towards mi...i realli wish to know y... was reading her blog juz now....she seemed to be happi now....happi wif her life in hall....happi with her boyfriend....im happi for her...though i dunno y im feeling sad that i can only read abt her from her blog. All the best.

Mayb its something wrong with mi. Suddenly got this feeling that i've realli been too busi with so mani things that i've neglected the relationships in my life. I tink I've taken friends too much for granted. I've always been so rushing for time that I can't remember when's the last time i sat down to juz haf coffee with my friends or hang out without having ani other worries or having to rush off to some other 'work'. When's the last time i actually got the time to sit down and listen to my friends with my heart...When's the last time i meet up with friends purely for catching up and not for work...I have to admit that I do have a huge network of friends, so many that some people might envy, but deep down i have to admit that out of all the many that i stop and say hi to...how many do i actually truely noe? All but juz 'hi-bye' friends, in fact some that i have to admit i dun realli remember if i noe them.

I tink im tired. Tired of the life im having. I want to settle down...I want to spend time embracing the moments i have with my families and friends.. I want to spend time remembering my friend's' birthdaysI really feel like settling down once this episode of my life is over.....

-A princess,but a lonely life. ...how happy can it be?-

::__. eXquisTic . SoPhiStIcaTion____::
Monday, October 17, 2005